Bewilderment

I wrote this back in high school:

Your eyes, like fiery diamonds,
bring heaven upon me,
hair like silk, skin so smooth,
it tortures me, insane.
Your voice, so soothing,
calms me so crazy,
and in the midst of all this beauty,
I crumble.
_

Working Through the Spaces Between

Resignation.

Have I given up?
Or am I lost?
Maybe I have just
Finally accepted
That which I knew to be
Inevitable.

Courage.

I admit that I
Was wrong in my
Thoughts and ideas
Concerning our
Relationship—
or lack thereof.

Perseverance.

I want to give up.
I don’t need this.
But indeed I will not
Lay down and die,
But I will press on
Encouraged.
_

Ruins

My heart burns inside me with an intensity
found only within the ruins of my love.
The passion felt—unnerving,
and I fear it might consume me.
But for the light of Christ I am lost,
and with His love only will my heart be saved.
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